OcD, much.

Sorry!!! lol. I haven't posted in a while. ...actually, I don't think anyone reads this. lol :(
Maybe it just keeps me sane. But, I don't know...

Let's see: I let off right before I went on the summer trip with my friends from school. So, the trip was fun. (I'm not going into any more details other then this because I getting tired of telling it) I will mention, that I told a friend that I've thought of suicide on the trip and he ended up telling the teacher and I had a very long talk with him. And a very uncomfortable one, at that. lol.

The trip ended August 3rd. When I came back, I felt changed...in a way. I felt more self-confident, which is always a struggle for me. I also felt confident about my personality and who I was. ...After a while, the effects of the trip wore off. Now, I need to find...myself, again.

A couple days ago, while at school, I kinda got really really mad at a friend for stealing my backpack. Which wasn't the right thing to do. And I know that now. I apologized afterwards and he forgave me. Which I'm grateful for. Things like that, the things I do, I get so mad at myself. i just wish I wouldn't have done that. But I'm also grateful that I did because if I didn't I wouldn't have thought so much, and tried to change that part of myself.

One of my friends is fed up of me. Apparently, I'm annoying. Just, because I trusted him with every thought of mine. And he's annoyed with my thoughts. Because of him, I think I have OcD, or at least that's what he called it, what I have. Honestly, I think I'm starting to believe him. Every single day, I find something new to obsess. I'm a disaster. I know it doesn't sound all that bad...but honestly, I'm pretty bad.

One of my goals for this year is to get straight As. But honestly, I don't think that all achieve it. Because, I think to let things soak before I actually get started. It's not that I don't do it. It's just that it doesn't appeal to me. So, I wait a while before doing it.

This year, I'm gonna wear make-up. Well, at least try to. I don't even know how to apply it right...whatever. Tomorrow, I'm gonna try.

I want to change my clothes style so badly! But everyone will probaly think it's weird that I just change during the school year. If I were them, I probaly would think it's weird, also.

Gabby is officially my new hairstylist. lol. Well, at least, hair-trimmer person. lol.

So far this year, I feel like a cat in heat. Because I have changed the person I like between four different people and the past week and a half.

In 9th grade, I think I'm gonna change my name to Kat. Instead of Katheryn, because...I don't know, I feel like I want a change. A big one.

I'm ready for high school, but at the same time, I'm not. I'm ready for the big changes. but not ready for making new friends.

I put Marianne on my dislike list. But not really. I said that out loud. But now I kinda regret it. Because I know she will probaly hear about it. And start a nasty rumor about me.

I recently got a psychology magazine. And I think I've decided to be a psychology major in college. But I'm not sure, yet.

I want to get some modeling magazines.

I think I'm good at nothing. Nothing really makes me different from eveyone else. I feel like nothing. But I'm going to continue on. Because I have to.

I've tried drawing. I like...no talent. Oh, that's another thing. I don't have any talents. Lucky me.